but i really love u,dad..

i went to my parents room last night coz my dad asked me to switch off the lights in his room after i'd finished using the computer downstairs.

So around 1 am, i went to my parents bedroom. When i opened the door, i looked at my dad and saw that his cheeks were....watery?

I thought my dad was sweating coz it was pretty hot last night. But then again, his forehead was dry..no sweats at all..

Based on that observation, i concluded that he cried b4 he went to sleep..It's kinda hard to digest the fact that my dad cried becuz i only saw him cried like once in my life.
Tu pun time gi MRSM dulu.

I switched off the lights immediately coz i was afraid that my dad might suddenly woke up or i might made noises or sumting.

But i couldnt stop thinking about it..I kept asking myself did my dad cry becuz of me? did i do sumting to offend him? Did i hurt his feeling by any means?

I thought about wat i did that day. As far as im concern,i didnt do anyhting that could have hurt his feelings on that particular day..was it abt sumting at work?aarrrghh..

I didnt tell my mom about it. Coz i dont want her to get upset too. Or maybe she already knew about it and she wants to keep it as a secret?

hmmmm.....i dont know la.

because of my reckless driving, a frog died

ok, so i've been following this tv show called "the Biggest Loser" for almost 4 months now. And i cant get enough of it! The show is about a group of overweight people trying to lose weight with the help of two very hot-HOT- trainers. And at the end of it, the person with the highest percentage of weight lost will win 250000USD!!!!

The contestant will be grouped into 2 ; The Blue Team and The Red Team. The trainer for the blue team is Bob Harper. Now this man im telling ya,is the best example for the word "HOTSTUFF"XD
He is a great trainer and in my opinion is also a great listener. And for the red team, the trainer is JILLIAN MICHAELS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I LOVE JILLIAN!! She's hot,tough,sexy and very bold. She trains her team like an army! "beatings,beatings and more beatings!" that's her motto X)

Rite now,im determined to get a body like her :P So im planning to do some exercise in the morning. But a question in my mind keeps preventing from doing so.. And that question is.....

"aku ni dah kurus tahap nk keding dah. Kalo exercise lagi, tak ke jadi tinggal rangka ke?"

I dont wanna look like an anorexic..i wanna look like JILLIAN MICHAELS X)
So i've been browsing on the internet about any exercise that i can do to shape up my body.
And of coz, to no avail -_-'

Oh,and the title of this blog has nothing to do with the content XD
But its true though. I ran over a poor frog :'(
Im a maniac driver im telling ya.




p/s: tht's the most decent picture of JILLIAN MICHAELS i could find. Sorry :P

Had a bbq party last nite. Every one had to contribute something. My room(the B-1-2) had to prepare gravy for the mashed potatoe. Since im not a good cook(i cant cook at all XD ), i decided to leave it to my housemates while i just helped to "kacau" the gravy. We got the recipe from Datin's mom. It was pretty good :) No,no, it was VERY good. Oh,did i mention that we cooked using a rice cooker? creative isnt it? XD

To cut the story short, at 8.30 me n 2 of my housemates went to the cafe,where the party was held. We thought we were late coz the party was supposed to start at 8pm. But when we arrived, the place looked so full of.......chaos..... So i just gave them(ahli jawatankuasa bbq mlm tu) the gravy and then i went to see my friends :P

Soon after that,the party started. Acha n A Girl That I Dont Know Wat Her Name Is were the MCs. They first invited Ummi(pemilik medic mesir) to give her speech. After that Pak Ngah,bla bla bla bla bla ( i dnt remember wat happened after that coz i was busy talking to my frens :P ).

Then i heard the MCs said "OK,enjoy ur food" .

While i was looking n choosing my food i saw Fathi. So i said hi,we talked a little and then me n my frens went back to our place and started to eat.

There were several performance from the students but my fav was a drama performed by group....i dont remember which group. It was very funny,i laughed my head off XD

And i also like Syakir n Syakira's( i just realised y they performed together :p ) performance..

They sang a song from a movie( i think the title of that movie is Talentime). And Syakira played the guitar..so cool X) Compared to the other performance, syakir n syakira's performance was the best. Everyone kept quiet while they sang :)

After all the performance, we took pictures with our Ustaz. Ustaz gave a very "touching" speech that i almost cried :p Shoutout to Ustaz: Dont worry Ustaz,i'll remember everything u said especially "cheat haram!" :p

When the party was over, we cleaned the place up. I helped to pick up the rubbish. I even picked up a "tapak kasut" -_-' Sape punye la tu.

I showed it to Bello n we both laughed our heads off XD

The party was very fun n im glad i went to the party :)

But it was pretty sad though, coz it also means that our premed course has come to end :'(

This week will only be exams n several bawwwwring lectures.

After that, we're all going to go home and not going to see each other again..

especially my housemates since im the only one who will be going to Alexandria..

*sob sob*

Perhaps we can meet again in Egypt?

To My Housemates: U GUYS ROCK ;)

Thanks, Dr.Steven

K,first of all,lame giler tak update my blog.
I wasnt busy or anything.
I was just simply lazy~

Anyway,my beloved cat,Remy, got sick 2 weeks ago.
Jaw dia mcm kembung tau. Then he scratched it,sebab gatal kot, then benda tu burst n jadi luka.
I was so panicked sebab ni la first time aku bela kucing.
My sister told me to bring the cat to Dr.Pet.
so i said "mcm mane nk bwk?"
"drive la bengong!"

Tak pasal2 kene cop bengong dgn my sis.
Tapi i was like scared to drive sbb time tu ptg,so org balik kerja an..
Mesti banyak kereta.
So i chickened out.
We called our mum instead.
Nasib baik my mum tak marah :P
So my mum pun balik all the way from UPM and brought us to Dr.Pet.
Now,about this Dr.Pet shop.
I am very5 angry dgn kedai ni!!
Dah la masa sampai nk tunggu dia layan tu lambat.
Then dia tipu pulak tu.
First, she gave us two alternatives: 1.RM150 treatment 2.RM350 treatment.
So i asked her which treatment yg Remy kena buat?
She said dont knw yet.
Depends pada luka tu..Nanti esok dia akan call and tanya which treatment did we want.
So we had until the next day to make up our mind.
Then esoknya dia called and asked which treatment yg kitorang nak.
So i said la yg rm150 tu coz it seems reasonable.
Tiba2 dia kata tak boleh sebab dia dah buat yg RM350.
We were like "WTH?!!!"
Luka apa yg sampai kena ubat RM350???
She said "oh tak,kita dah buat surgery kat dia.So encik kena bayar RM350"
My mum asked "puan dah buat dah?i mean he's already had the surgery?"
"ye puan,kami dah buat dah"
Serious,time ni rasa mcm nk mencarut je.
Suke2 hati je dia nk buat,we didnt even give the permission.
She cornered us supaya buat treatment yg RM350 tu.

Ok la,takpe..asalkan remy sihat.She told us to pick remy up on friday.
So on friday we went there n picked him up. My poor remy was wearing this funny collar around his neck. And saw stiches kat jaw dia. And his eyes pun mcm banyak taik mata.
Then the so-call-doctor pun bagi la ubat and terangkan la mcm mana nk bagi dia sume ubat2 tu.
Dia kata kena kurung for 2 weeks.

So we did wat the "doctor" said.
But remy didnt seem to get better. Instead he was getting worst! Taik mata dia kuar byk giler!
We basically had to wipe it up like,once for 2 hours!
Pastu sian dia nmpk mcm tercekik dgn collar tu.
He walked backward!
Eventhough its cute to see him walk backward(hehehehe XD) but still kesian la tgk dia terseksa mcm tu.
After one week of hell,i finally had enough and asked my mum to take remy to another pet shop kat fasa 4 tambahan.
Again,my mum tak marah-phew!- and brought us there.
Sampai2 je terus org tu layan.
So kitorang pun citer la apa yg terjadi.
Then he said "dr.pet,itu kedai mmg banyak la org sudah complain.Tak bagus la situ. Itu org yg tua itu,bukan doctor la."
I was like "F**K!!!!!"
hahaha..i dnt say tht word so much. So whenever i say it,it means im really99 mad.

So the very kind Chinese guy-i think his name is Dr.Steven- checked on Remy and then he gave him ubat.
He said that remy berjangkit sakit mata and kena selsema.
So he gave ubat selsema,batuk and ubat untuk luka yg kononnya "surgery" tu.
and it was only for RM35!
RM35!!!!!!
Then i said thanks to him(like 100 times! :P) and we went home.
Bila balik je i terus bagi ubat tu kat remy.
And in just a day,sakit mata dia dah berkurang!
Alhamdulillah...

So now,Remy is healthy n naughty like before :)
he even became fatter X)
Makin cute la!! hehehe..
i'll show u guys his picture if i have the time.
For those yg ade myspace tu maybe dah tgk kot?


K,thts all for now.
i'll write more in the near future.
Bye2 for now :D

Fullmoon

Sweats pour down his back. He's running fast. As fast as he can. Everything he sees is blurry like a quick flash of images. He's breathing hard.. His muscles ache from all the running but he doesn't care. He looks up to the sky, "it's almost time" he says-no,he growls. He runs faster,he has to make it to the cornfield or else.

The small hut in the middle of the cornfield is almost upon his reach when he suddenly hears a woman's voice calling him from behind. He looks back and he sees a beautiful woman indeed. "U know her,Jani!",a voice inside his head screams and it rang loudly in his mind and ears. He puts his hands to his ears,a fail attempt to shut the voice, and runs towards the hut."I don't know her!","who's Jani?!", he thinks.

He slams the door and locks it. "Its not enough", he thinks. But the time is running out so he has no choice but to pray that the door can lasts through the night. The burning sensation in his stomach increases. He tries to endure the pain but to no avail. He screams in pain. At the same time he feels his fingers grows slightly bigger and harrier. He tries so hard not to lose his mind. "You know her,Jani!" again the voice repeats itself. Two large fangs grow and with the last bit of his conscious mind he sees another flash of an image. A woman-black hair with a pair of blue eyes. She is dressed in the whitest silver and she is smiling at him. Again the voice "U know her,Jani!".

He is screaming again-no,he is howling now. A voice behind the door, "Jani love,open this door please. We'll go through this together.Please Jani!" the voice pleads. But he is no longer Jani. He's a beast now. A beast ready to kill anyone he has set his eyes on. With one final screams,the transformation completes. Jani-the beast- gazes around with its yellow,large eyes. Someone is pounding the door. "Jani, are you ok? It's me,Dana. It's ok love..It's all over now.." the voice behind the door says.
"Oh,it is far from over" the beast gives a sick,wicked laugh. Then it runs swifly towards the door. The smell of blood is in the air and it can sense it. And the last thing it sees is the horror filled face of a woman. Everything goes black after that...


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Jani's body trembles with fear and sadness. Tears flow from his eyes. A lifeless body of a woman lies in front of him. "Im sorry..Im sorry" that is all that he can utter. He has once again killed his lover. He cannot take it anymore. He does not want to kill anymore. Or worse,kill another woman he loves. The curse is unbearable. He has to stop it now. With tears,he gazes around the hut. His gaze settles on a mirror. He sees a man covered with blood starring back at him and at that moment his mind is set. He walks out of the hut and goes back to his house at the far end of the village. Anyone who sees him screams in terror and runs away. As he reaches his house, he goes to kitchen-still in tears- and takes a knife. He puts the knife to his neck and then he sees it again-the image- that same black haired woman is smiling at him. And he remembers now..She was his first lover...also his first victim as a werewolf. He gives a small smile and says slowly "im coming now,Catherine..". Then he slits his throat and blood rushes out rapidly from his veins.....


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So i was inspired to write this story after listening to Sonata Arctica-Fullmoon and Metallica-Of wolf and man.And also by the story Sendoh sent me. Even though my english is not so good, I hope u guys can give some comments :)

Oh,and please5 tell me if theres any error with my grammar. Thanks :D

Regrets,i had a few

got my spm results on 12 march.

I was so nervous.

I even cried before i got the results.

Entering the hall,i could see other kids' moms.

I was sad+jeles coz my mum wasnt there with me.

(dia kat Indon ade hal)

While waiting for my results,i saw some of the students from 5 cekal had already got their results.

My class lambat.

But to cut the story short,i got ok for my SPM..i got 1 B3

My B3 is....Bahasa Melayu!!

Of all the subjects...bm gak yg b

Kinda weird coz...BM?? are u kidding me??

If i got B for bio,chem,english or physics caye la..

Even if i got B for math,addmath pun boleh caye gak..

BM???

So after i got my results,i went home and gt ready for work.

Yeah,i didnt get a leave on that day like most of my frens.

Bt the best thing was most of the customers asked me abt my results X)

hehehe...
The first one was Mr.Najib.Tengok je my face terus tanye "ha,result mcm mane?"
So i told him and he was like "owh tahniah2!"
I thought at that time he was going to belanja me or something XD
(bt he didnt)

After Mr.Najib was Pocho2 aka Maizura.
I call her pocho2 coz she likes to do tht pocho2 dance.
Same as Mr.Najib,she congragulated me.
well,i just smiled n said thank you :)

My parents asked what i want as a present.
Bt i cant think of anything rite now.
Its just,i dnt have anything that i really want.
well,not yet ;)


By the way,my parents told me to do medicine..
Bt u knw,eventhough i took science stream,my dream is to become a businesswoman.
I never imagine myself as a doctor.
I wanna study business and management bt i think its kinda late to study account now..
So i have no choice bt to continue with medicine.
Rasa mcm menyesal pulak sbb tak amik account dulu.
Oh well,watever course im going to study,im gonna do my best :)
Thats for sure..

love it or hate it.

March 23,2008.. I was supposed to send my resignation letter to the manager today..But i couldnt do it.I stared at the letter thinking "should i send it now or not?"..

To be honest,i want to quit coz im tired ..But at the same time i dont coz i kinda miss all those people i've known since i start working..Pakcik Alam Shan,Pakcik Harry(khairi),Encik Zulkifli,Puan,Chef Nan,kak ima,Atuk and many more..These people had taught me so many things whether they realize it or not.

Let me take u back to December 14,2008..

It was my first day of working..I woke up that day and just did the normal stuff.Mandi,makan,main kom,reading newspaper..Then while i was laying on my bed,around 2.30pm,i got a call from an unknown number.
A woman's voice said that i was hired and i can start at 3 pm.So i asked "ni dari mana ye?".I really didnt know coz i applied for a job at many places.The voice said something but i couldnt hear it coz it sounded as if it was mumbling.But i caught the word "farmasi bangi"..So being an overly excited 17-year-old i was,i did the biggest mistake by not asking again.I just said thanks.The moment i put down my phone,i jumped and jumped and jumped! I was so happy.
I ran downstairs and told my mum about it.My mum asked "farmasi bangi tu kat mana?"..I replied "yg dkt dgn bistro tu kot?Tu je farmasi yg adik apply"..So my mum drove me to that place.

I was so nervous when i arrived there,i swear i could hear my own heart beat! @_@
With my head held high,i walked into the shop with my newly found confidence.
I went to the counter and asked "kak,tadi ada call pasal pekerja baru tu kan?..The girl behind the counter made the blurrest(if there is such word) face i'd ever seen.Then she told me to wait while she called her supervisor.

Supervisor: Ye dik,nak apa?
Me : Tadi sini ada call pasal pekerja baru tu kan?
Supervisor: *thinking* Hmm..tak ada la dik.

At that moment,every ounce of confidence i'd mustered vanished..Just like that.
With shaky voice(probably sbb malu) i asked back "tapi tadi ada org call kata saya dpt kerja kat sini?".
At this time,all the workes were gathering around me n the supervisor-probably trying to dig some gossips XD - and all of them made blur faces.If there is a competition about the blurrest face on earth,i will bet my money on them.

Then the supervisor asked for the number that supposedly had called me earlier.So i gave her.
I waited nervously while she called the number..After about 2-3 mins,the supervisor put down the phone and said-with a smile(more like a smirk) on her face- "Dik,ni bukan farmasi bangi..Ni Palma Cafe Bangi.."
Her words came into me like a cold,sharp, steel piercing through my heart.
All i could think about at that time was "MALU!!!!!!!"
My sight became hazy and in that mist i could hear the sound of laughter coming from all around me..
To try to cover the embarrasment,i laughed along..when everthing cooled down,i apologised and said thanks..The supervisor said its ok and after that i walked out of that shop with the sound of gigle following my footsteps.
Nasib baik my mum tak balik lagi so i got into the car, told my mum everthing(and i think u can guess wat her reaction was) and then she drove me straight to PKNS bangi.

This time,i went inside and asked a woman,Kak Ima,to see the supervisor(tak mahu pisang berbuah dua kali haha)..Then a woman,Puan Ju,probably around her 40+ years old came to me.
Before i could say anyhting she asked "Ni Nabilah ye?"
So this time i was sure-and confident-i came to the right place teeheee X)
I said yes and she asked me a few questions then after that...She gave me my uniform!!
My uniform!! its not highly fashionable X) but... My Uniform!
Its a short sleeves t-shirt,red in colour..The left sleeve is black in colour while the right sleeve is yellow. (told u its not 'fashionable')

So we did a briefing.She taught me how things work around the cafe,wat my work is,how to set the table and how to take orders.After that she said "ok,awak kiranya dah mula bekerja ye".
My first work as a waiter was....washing the dishes XD
Since there were no customers at that time,i couldnt practice to take orders.
After a few hours,there was a guy-my fist ever customer teeheee XD - sat at the outside table.
So Puan told me to take his order.I was like "skerang ke puan?sekarang?nak gi sekarang ke?pastu nk ckp ape?"
Puan and kak imah laughed their heads off.
So nak tak nak kena la gak pergi..

Me: Selamat petang.
Customer: Selamat petang
Me: *give menu*
Customer: Bagi milo ais satu.
Me: Milo ais,ok.
Customer: menu biar sini dulu ye.Ade kawan saya nk dtg.
Me: ok.

I was so stiff! X)
Malu sgt5...i think i might had fidget a little.
So i went inside and puan asked "so macam mana?"
I said "takut....!"
Then she laughed and asked me wat the order was.
Then she told me that in the cafe,if the customer ordered drinks then the waiter had to make the drink.If the customer ordered foods,send the orders to the kitchen.
So she taught me how to make milo ais(like i need to be taught how to make that hehehe..)
After i sent the drink,i went inside and puan introduce me to the kitchen staff.
There were Tuk Bahadur(Nepal),Uttim Lama(Nepal) and Zulkurnain(melayu la)..
I called Tuk as Atuk coz everybody(except Uttim) called him Atuk.
So pastu mcm kenal2 then buat kerje balik..
The whole day went normal after that.


Hahaha..so thats how my first day of working went.
Working is nothing like going to school i tell ya.
Its tiring but its fun at the same time.
And it gives u a little taste of the real world.
Though there are some things i dont like while working at Palma Cafe(saje nk promote),but all in all,I love it..I love working there..
I want to write everything about it but i think thats all for now.

p/s:i'd sent my resignation letter T_T
another p/s:sorry for the bad grammar..english is not my mother's tongue