wherever i may roam

i remember this one conversation i had with nad, my housemate. The conversation was about, if i have an unlimited amount of cash, what will i do about it. Lame u say eh? haha.

But it got me thinking.

If i have an unlimited amount of cash i will:

GIVE MY PARENTS 15 MILLIONS EACH. AND QUIT MY STUDIES IN MEDICINE.

yes, quit my studies in medicine. Because i just, well.... tak minat. I like it, but i dont love it. I love physics.

U see, i didnt get a scholarship to further my studies in medicine. My parents paid for all the expenses. And i love them for that, it shows how much they are ready to sacrifice everything they have just for me.

But, that's not what i wanted.

Going there, and doing things im not interested in, all that has put me in a state of being so, unhappy.

But im scared to tell them this because well they had already spent lots of money n stuff.

I feel like i owe them.

And i dont think i can bare their disappointment if i tell them i want to quit.

So im just going to hang in there. Fake the smile, act like im so interested in medicine, and just face it.

even when it makes me extremely depressed.

p/s: i lied to nad about what will i do with all the money. I told her i would still continue my studies. and sorry for the poor grasp of english people. Two years of arabic and i already forgot all the lessons i had.